I Guess I Should Be Looking Forward

Yesterday, I spent some time looking back at 2013. It’s also traditional, however, to look forward into the next year, often making resolutions or setting goals.

Well, I’m not really going to do that. Resolutions seem made to be broken, and setting goals involves a lot more thought and decision-making than I’m feeling up to right now. Rather, I’m going to write about things I want to do, see, or have happen in the near future.

I want to keep on writing. Blogging has become part of my daily routine, and I’d like to keep it that way. I’d like to put more energy into it, however, try to make my daily posts a bit less perfunctory. Maybe even write some fiction; I’ve toyed with the idea of serializing one of my short stories, as a way of building up a (lot of) buffer. I just haven’t decided when to do it yet.

I want to find passion for my hobbies again. Right now, a lot of my friends seem to be coping with varying levels of SCA burnout. Even I’m finding myself less enthusiastic than I used to be, going to weekly practices far too often out of force of habit. Maybe teaching (which I plan to continue to do) will help with that, but I also want to further my own training.

I want to continue to work on improving my mental state, being more conscious of triggers and cues that herald a Funk, as well as maybe even talking to someone in a professional manner. It can’t hurt at this point.

But mostly, I want a better job. Being a retail grunt has outstayed its welcome. Architecture didn’t pan out, and I’m still feeling more than a bit burned by forces outside my control (read: recession). I want to start looking for other jobs, in fields closer to my passions. Maybe IT support. Maybe web design. Maybe even something where I can use my atrophying architectural design skills. I don’t know. I have so little experience looking for a job, let alone picking a career, I don’t know where to start. But something has to happen.

And of course (as well as to end on a lighter note), I want more LEGO.

So there you have it. A short list of not-goals and not-resolutions for the coming year. I haven’t the faintest idea how to accomplish most of these (except the LEGO one), but I’m sure I’ll figure something out. More likely than not I’ll forget this stuff, but maybe I’ll return to this list in the future, see how things are going. After all, I’ve written it down; that makes it real.

Anything could happen.

3 thoughts on “I Guess I Should Be Looking Forward

  1. Ailea

    My goal for this year is to go out seeking the joy I used to have for my hobbies, generally. To this end, I hope to find a better work/life balance, do things when I’m having fun with it, don’t do things just because I should (I should plus I want to is fine), and go purposefully looking for the feelings, joy, and experiences I remember. Maybe we can support each other in seeking the joy.

    1. Joshua Post author

      Sounds good to me. There’s a lot of it going around, because it’s not just you or me. I wish I knew what caused it; too much seems to fall under “should” these days. I’ll let you know if I find any tricks.

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