Christmas is always a weird time of year for me. The question that gets thrown around a lot is “What do you want for Christmas?” And for whatever reason, that simple phrase comes to dominate the feeling of the season for me. It doesn’t help that my answer is often “I don’t know,” or that I have to convince myself that I “deserve” presents and nice things.
I’ve reached a point in my life where I have most of the things I need, and asking for socks or similar is just boring. And the stuff I don’t have I can quite easily go out and obtain for myself. Of course there’s stuff I want. But these days, the stuff I want is expensive enough I don’t feel comfortable asking someone else to buy it for me. A $30 game is one thing, but a $350 graphics card? That gets awkward.
And just asking for money is awkward in its own way. I know that I have a bad habit of squirreling away cash in my savings account, then not really ever doing anything with it. But that totally defeats the purpose of the gift! And giving someone money isn’t as fulfilling as giving them a more tangible gift.
But that’s the situation I find myself in this year. The things I want (not that I need them) are expensive, and mostly have to do with building a new computer. So when asked the titular question, don’t be surprised if I answer “I don’t know, computer monies?” Because that’s all I’m coming up with.